I have been sat at my parents house thinking of something to write about. Trawling through various websites for inspiration, I came across an article posted by Candace Sesi on Hello Giggles called the The Quarter-Life Crisis and I can relate to it so much!
You can read the full article here but I have taken out some bits that are so relevent to my life and how I have been feeling over the past few months:
“The Quarter-Life Crisis”
Author Unknown
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out
This article is so spot-on it's scary! It's so nice to know that I am definitely not the only one out there feeling this way.
Lately I have found myself thinking about my life and how it is turning out. I know I have so much more I want to do and time seems to be getting away from me a little bit. I feel like I have missed opportunities along the way and I also feel a little bit like I should be much more satisfied with my life than I am. I am almost 30 and it has taken practically all of my 20s for me to figure out what I want in life! By now I thought I would be married with children and be happy and settled. I am happy but not nearly as much as I should be.
When I split with my boyfriend of five years two years ago I became more independent, took control of my life, started living alone for the first time....and then got comfortable again. It took another year and a half to get moving on my next project, my teaching course, which I have finally started and am enjoying. Thinking back, I needed that time to adjust and settle myself so in a way I am glad that I took a bit of a step back.
I do think sometimes I am going to be 'left on the shelf' as it were! It's hard being single, not having someone there to share things with and to come home to after a hard day at work. I am starting to miss these things more and more and as I get older sometimes it feels like I am never going to find that special someone. I have been on dates but just haven't felt that connection with anybody. With one guy, I found myself hoping that I would feel something. We got on so well and had lots in common but I couldn't feel attracted to him....it's so frustrating. Am I destined to only fall for men whom I have no future with!!
Having said that, and I don't want to say too much in case I jinx it, I did go on a fantastic date the other night with a fabulous man I met at work! We have known each other for about a year now and recently we've been emailing a lot. Suddenly, he asked me out! I was quite shocked but pleased as he is such a nice guy but I was scared too. I thought it would be another case of, "nice guy...but I just don't like him that way"....how wrong was I??! It was fabulous! That is all I will say for now! :-)
